I am in complete panic mode right now. I told my mom that I was cutting off communication until she began counseling.
She had her first session today.
She sent me a text to let me know, and said she is ready to talk if I want to.
I don't feel ready. All this time not talking to her has given me a lot of freedom to feel some negative things that I couldn't before, but were still poking their way to the surface.
Now I have to own up and actually talk to her about them. And I'm terrified. Which sounds ridiculous. It's not like she's going to yell and scream at me. That's not who she is. Truthfully, I have no idea what to expect.
I just know I could really use an extra dose of encouragement right now.
You might be her child, but you are also a grown woman. Speak to her as a grown woman, not as her child. You have the authority now. You've obviously proven yourself as smart, strong, and worthy of respect. If she chooses not to see that, it's her loss. If she is able to have a productive conversation with you and treats you with the respect you've earned, it's your gain. Either way, you don't lose. I'll be sending positive thoughts your way ;)
ReplyDeleteIt might be worth it to tell her "I'm glad we can talk again, but I have to admit I'm nervous." And then ask her about how her therapy stuff went - or just talk about ordinary things for a while. That could give you a chance to get used to speaking to her before getting into the heavy stuff.
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