I believe there are certain moments in everyone's lives where they are given the opportunity to change and grow. The decisions we make at these times will inevitably affect our lives forever. I believe I am at one of those crossroads right now. I am at a place where I am open to growth and am trying to become a better person in the process.
A lot of this was based on my decision to start therapy again. I've been in it in the past, however, I was in a very different place in my life and it was not anything like what I am doing now. There were not a lot of what I would call "therapeutic techniques" used because I was not ready for them. Now it is completely different. I am able to handle the work and anxious to do so. Having begun this inner work, I have been making changes in other places in my life. I am coming to terms with a lot of my issues, and finally realizing how deeply the abuse I suffered has affected me. I have recently discovered a passion for helping other victims and survivors, hence the blog. I have realized that I need to make decisions that are right for me.
I have been slowly letting go of my fear of judgement. I've always had this idea that sometimes survivors are perceived as victims who are milking their abuse, who can no longer have fun, and no one wants to be around. It is in trying to avoid being seen that way that I was sweeping a lot of my issues under the rug. Once I was able to let go of that, I felt strangely liberated. While this blog is largely to help others, I would be lying if I said it didn't help me. It has been incredibly therapeutic for me. I have had quite a few people share with me how my blog has affected them, and that has been priceless. Even if I do get negative feedback (which I have not), it would still be worth it.
Recently, I had come to the conclusion that I was not the right person for my job. I did not feel like I was very effective, and was very aware of what my shortcomings were. I tried my best to overcome them, but eventually realized that it just wasn't right for me. Around that time, someone told me about an assistant social services position that was open at Creasy Springs. This is the kind of work I am most interested in, however you usually have to have a degree to work in a position like that. I found out that it was not required in this case, and suddenly found myself with an interview and a job offer. Beginning December 6, I will be working part-time in activities and part-time in social services until that position becomes full-time. I will miss my co-workers at Comfort Keepers, and all the amazing people I have met while marketing, although I'm sure our paths will cross again. It's only fair to say, however, that I would never be able to get a job like this without the experience I gained at Comfort Keepers. I have grown so much in my time there, and pushed far outside my comfort zone, which I really needed. It opened my eyes to what a great community Greater Lafayette is as well.
Since I am still the marketing coordinator for Comfort Keepers for a few more weeks, let me take a moment to say they are awesome and you should check them out!! www.comfortkeepers.com ;-)
I am very excited and optimistic about my future. It feels like a deep breath of fresh air and I think I am on the right path. Of course there will be mistakes along the way (see The Big City Adventure), but that's just life.
Wish me luck!
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