(Come on, you had to know this post was coming...)
Oh Father's Day. I was determined not to let you get to me this year. I told myself I was past that. After all, I have an amazing godfather, and I should just be thankful for that and focus all my "Father's Day energy" on that. It seemed like a good idea. It just didn't turn out to be very realistic.
The days leading up to the holiday were fine. I didn't get upset or teary at all. I thought I had won. This morning was fine as well. I had volunteered to work today (as well as Mother's Day) so I figured that would keep me busy. And it did! Until I sat down for lunch to catch my breath and opened up Facebook on my phone. I saw so many posts talking about what great dads people had and how lucky they are to have him. And it broke my heart. I couldn't help but wonder what it feels like. Part of me wondered how honest they were being also, but I'm going to assume that most of them were.
After lunch, I got back to work and didn't have time to think about it again. Once I got home, I made the foolish decision to watch a movie that I already knew would make me cry. Ok, I'll just be honest - it was Disney's Tangled. Long story short (SPOILER ALERT!), Rapunzel was kidnapped as a baby but reunited with her parents at the end. That's the scene that really got me this time. Maybe I knew what I was doing when I decided to watch the movie. Maybe I just needed to cry it out and get it out of my system.
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| A family reunited |
I guess I don't have anything constructive to say here. In conclusion, Father's Day makes me sad, but I wish a VERY happy day to my godfather, and to all the wonderful, supporting and deserving father's out there. You truly are more valuable than you know.
Rachel
hey friend,
ReplyDeletei'm with you. mother's day is my "family day i dread and hate." i avoid church on that day, and i avoid facebook and the public. i stay inside, sleep the day away and watch a movie that's not on tv.
the good thing is that tomorrow will be fresh. there will be small mentions of what people did over the weekend ... but i *try* to do what you did--think of those who are deserving of a lovely holiday celebrating the parents who do it right. (not that i always succeed. but there it is.) hang in there, friend. the day's almost out :)