The Doors Opened

Last night I was not in a writing mood, so I only wrote about half of the inner child work I did yesterday. The second half involved going back to the locked doors. 

I started out, as usual, in my happy place. My Actual Self was there, and we walked together down the sand ridge, and through the cellar doors. As we walk down the stairs together, I run my hand along the wall, paved with large smooth stones. The doors are going to open this time. I can sense it. We get to the wooden doors, and I remember that I am wearing the key around my neck. I lift it to the lock and it opens immediately. Beyond the doors is a short hallway, lined with...more doors. At the end of the hallway is a round wrought iron window, with light streaming in. I can smell the beach outside. 

It looks like the hallway splits off to the left and the right at the end, although I didn't go down there to investigate. There's probably more hallways with more doors, but I'm not sure yet. 

A New Door

I think there are about 10 doors that I can see, 5 on each side. One of the doors on the right is unlocked. I open it, and inside it is empty. It is a small cell, about the size of a prison cell. There is a small window in the upper right corner, just like the one in the hallway.

I take a moment back in the hallway to observe my surroundings. I'm not ready to investigate the other doors yet, or to peek around the corner. Once I'm ready, I head back up the stairs to my happy place.

So why did the door open all of a sudden? I believe that for one, it was simply the right time. I have been doing a  lot of work on several levels, and had I not, the doors would not have budged. For two, I think the flashback I had was related. I think the doors really opened that day, although it was when I least expected it! I think my blog has been related to that as well. By writing about it, it forces me to take the time to really think about things and process them to be able to put anything into words.

Another question is why did one door open to an empty cell? One theory is that it represents something that is missing. The first things that come to my mind are Bio Dad and my desire to have a child of my own (will blog on that one later!). These are both things I think about daily. On the other hand, it could represent things that I have already worked through. I'm not sure yet.

Do you have any insight or ideas? I would love to hear them! It always nice to get a fresh perspective!

Thanks for reading!

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