I don't have a big long post today, but I came across something I wanted to share.
There is a thread on the internet discussing a sensitivity to music related to PTSD. Several of the contributors related their own annoyances with repetitive sounds, such as certain music, turn signals, general ticking, clicking, squeaking noises, etc.
I became ridiculously excited by this! Those kinds of sounds can nearly drive me mad. Sometimes Studdly Hubby will be innocently playing a video game that requires an abnormal amount of clicking/button pushing and I have to do everything within my power not slap the mouse/control right out of his hands. I can just feel my pulse quickening like I'm running a marathon.
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| Oh, what fresh hell is this... |
But far worse than the sound is repetitive motions. For example, Studdly Hubby and I are sitting in the study. I'm on our old couch, doing homework on my laptop. He's sitting at the table doing his homework. Everyone is happy and getting along. And then it begins. His leg starts moving from side to side, in a repetitive motion. I try my best to block it out, but I can see it in my peripheral vision, shaking repetitively. I try to ignore it, but finally, through clenched teeth, ask him to stop moving. He is very aware of this particular neurosis and stops for the moment. Then he dives back into his work, and before you know it, his leg is moving again. At this point its taking all my strength not to pounce on him like some while animal and rip out his arteries from his neck with my teeth...
Ahem....
But I really do love him. :-D
And my point is, there are people out there like me. Which is a great comfort when I start feeling like an Extraterrestrial walking around this world.
Rachel
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