I felt trapped the other day. Someone came up to me and put their arm around my waist. For whatever reason, it made me very uncomfortable. But because of my relationship to this person, I couldn't figure out a way to discreetly pull away without causing a scene. This person did not do anything wrong. It wasn't unreasonable for her to assume that her actions were appropriate. Apparently she feels closer to me than I do her, but none of the other people that I feel even closer to do this. I would be somewhat uncomfortable if they did it as well.
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| How am I going to walk this path? |
I don't know why she makes me especially uncomfortable when she does things like that, other than her hugs are always too long. I suppose she is simply more physically affectionate than I am comfortable with. The only person I like touching me that much is my husband.
Inside, I was thinking about my recent post talking about children owning their bodies and not making them hug people they don't want to hug. And here I am, a 25 year old, and I can't find a way to speak up.
This situation wasn't traumatizing by any means. I don't want to over dramatize it. I'm just really frustrated with myself for not speaking up...for not removing myself from a situation that made me very uncomfortable. I'm very disappointed in myself and feel very weak.
I talk the talk so well, but I sometimes stumble on the walk.
Rachel
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